Let me just start by painting you a picture of the little piece of heaven I find myself in right now. It's most beautiful part of the morning where it streams through the curtains and hits my coffee on the table- don't worry, it's decaf- and the beautiful green Starbucks logo smiles at me. Dang, it's so good! Colbie Caillet is playing through the laptop and I feel my precious little girl moving in my belly as if she's dancing to the music with me this morning. We serve such a beautiful God that gives us these precious moments when we need them most. Because the truth is, as wonderful as this morning is, I know Dan and I have a long and hard road ahead of us. I guess that's the incredible thing about a relationship with the Lord though; if our lives were hunky dory... I think i'd be a little worried. The trial that I feel right now is such another sweet reminder that our Maker is hard at work in us.
One sec, just taking a sip of my delicious "iced grande decaf skinny vanilla latte with 1 splenda" it's okay- you can be jealous. I won't judge.
I definitely didn't update my blog at all about my pregnancy but don't worry (because I know you were) it was incredibly smooth.. until about four weeks ago. I started to notice at work that my vision was a little blurry, apparently momma needed to update her prescription. Long story short, at the same time that my blurry vision came about I had a spike in my blood pressure and increased swelling (even after drinking 80oz of water a day!). My Dr. was worried that I was becoming preeclamptic, soo we took a bunch of blood and bodda-bing-bodda-boom, I was fine. A couple weeks passed and I began to show baby steps of progress, (aka I was dilated to 1cm) woo! I know- pathetic. So then I really got on it and started walking EVERYWHERE. I was so excited to get to my appointment to see if I'd begun to efface or dilated a little more- yeah, total let down. Nothing changed... nothing! What?! You mean to tell me that I moved this booty all week long for nothing?! My cervix was still so high that she couldn't even strip my membranes haha total fail. We were about to end the appointment when she glanced at my blood pressure and said she wanted me to go into the hospital to be monitored because it was so high again. Wonderful, not only have I not progressed but now I have to tell my husband that he has to come meet me in triage and sit with me for three hours for them to tell me i'm fine. Bummer.
After we got settled into the room I began to notice that every time my blood pressure cuff would go off it would beep and flash a sign saying "admit patient" haha goodness Alyssa, control your blood pressure why don't ya! It finally settled down and we then just had to wait on the results for my blood and (ahem) pee-pee. As we sat there listening to our little bean we found out that she has an irregular heart beat. Apparently very common and often times it corrects itself within a couple days after birth- but nonetheless kind of cute (only because they said it's harmless) that she already has a little something unique to her. The results came back showing elevated signs of protein in my urine which is concern for preeclampsia. So I'll have to go back in tonight for a second monitoring and if the levels haven't gone down then they'll probably induce me :(
So pray, pray, pray! Pray that either my levels all go back to normal or that she decides to come on her own today! Dan and I are excited but nervous that this may be our last day to spend together as a 2 person family. I can't wait to kiss those sweet cheeks on my little Emma Maren, just praying it's all in God's timing and not the doctors. Sorry this was so long, but then again, maybe no one made it this far.. so you wouldn't know the difference. Well i'm off to enjoy the rest of my starbucks (holla!) and maybe indulge myself in a little HGTV... guilty!
-AG
